Embrace Yourself Today

I recall feeling "rich" as a child. We didn't have much, yet I felt like we had it all! We never took family vacations, never even took staycations...yet I felt RICH! I had no idea my mom was facing financial despair, especially after being kicked off her insurance (back then it was legal to do that). My mom was a warrior, she fought cancer, worked to jobs and raised three girls...needless to say there just wasn't any money...but I didn't know that until I was much older and she had been gone for at least a decade. The way my mom spoiled us and others one would assume we had money for days...she wasn't frivolous, she was calculated. Looking back I would say my mother's love language was likely words of affirmation and quality time, but she would show love by giving gifts and offering words of affirmation. We are the same in that way...I absolutely love to spoil the ones I love. If I weren't a die hard budget person I would spend with no regard, just ...

The world of technology allows us to present ourselves in the most favorable light possible. In fact, my marriage was born out of a relationship that was started and maintained through Computer Mediated Communication (CMC). Through this method of communication, it didn’t matter what I looked like physically at the moment; it also allowed me to conceal what my facial expressions would give away. This form of communication allowed me to rethink, reread and actually hear what I was saying before I hit “send”.  Thus, a world was born, one where everyone seems perfect, flawless, accomplished, beautiful and ageless. A world of perfection came into existence: perfect children, perfect marriages, and perfect jobs. It is in this world of perfection that we all feel like failures. Social media shows us that a perfect world does exist, we just don’t feel a part of it…even if our Facebook, Instagram, Snap Chat, Twitter and blog tells others we are; we know our truth . While we bel...

This morning, while driving, God placed a mirror before my eyes and He allowed me to see myself at the very moment of life I was in. For the past week I have been crying out to God asking him to guide me lead me, speak to me and direct me in what to do about a current trouble I am facing. I have been pleading with him daily to shine light on the situation and to speak to my heart about what to do and how to respond…in all of my crying I have not heard His voice or direction. Discouragement creeps in easily when we are desperate. Well this morning while driving, God allowed me to see myself in my sweet toddler. My Pie woke up in quiet a mood, crying before her feet even hit the floor. I knew it was going to be a day. When she is upset she always asks me to sing (I can’t carry a tune in a dump truck, yet my singing brings her comfort). I turned her little worship music up and began singing…still she is screaming, “Mommy sing, please mommy, sing!” I continued to sing, just a l...

After a long hiatus, I'm back to blogging. I have been encouraged by a friend to start once more. Not everything I write will be a husband wife perspective...the idea of that name came from writing about our experiences abroad. Now that we are stateside, the content will change somewhat. Nonetheless, entertaining, educational, uplifting it will remain! For the first time in 10 years I deactivated my Facebook account, I never realized how much of a stake it had in my life until I went to deactivate it. A rush of uncertainty and loss overcame me…it left me pondering how something so insignificant could have become such a significant part of me. I suppose I allowed it to become a part of my identity. It was a sacred place where friendships blossomed, were rekindled, or maintained. It was a place that allowed me to be the person I wanted to be and not necessarily the person I am.  Facebook allowed me to live my best days publically, while allowing me to carefully conceal my ...