This morning, while driving, God placed a mirror before my
eyes and He allowed me to see myself at the very moment of life I was in. For
the past week I have been crying out to God asking him to guide me lead me,
speak to me and direct me in what to do about a current trouble I am facing. I
have been pleading with him daily to shine light on the situation and to speak
to my heart about what to do and how to respond…in all of my crying I have not
heard His voice or direction. Discouragement creeps in easily when we are desperate.
Well this morning while driving, God allowed me to see
myself in my sweet toddler. My Pie woke up in quiet a mood, crying before her
feet even hit the floor. I knew it was going to be a day. When she is upset she
always asks me to sing (I can’t carry a tune in a dump truck, yet my singing
brings her comfort). I turned her little worship music up and began singing…still
she is screaming, “Mommy sing, please mommy, sing!” I continued to sing, just a
little louder. She continued crying out, “mommy, please sing, I want you to
sing.” I looked in the mirror and said, stop crying, I am singing. Yet, she
only continued in her charade. I kept singing and she kept begging me to sing.
I finally said, "STOP! Just be still and be quiet and you will hear my voice." DING
DING DING…I stopped at a red light and just said, “wow…that is exactly what I
am doing with God.”
I am the one who is crying out, begging to hear his voice. I
am carrying on and acting out…In that moment I heard God loud and clear, “Sit
still Dori, you will hear my voice”. I was so busy screaming at him and
demanding to hear him that I never stilled my mind and heart to hear him or
even see if He was speaking to me…Now I know He was speaking, I was just yelling over him.
Are you yelling over God today? Be still...know that He is God (Ps 46:10). He hears His sheep (John 10:27), He knows them by name (Is 42: 1-2), He will hold you up with his righteous right hand (Is 41:10).
Thank you for posting this. I have been dealing with this the last "weekish" and had to remind myself to just be still.
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